mocha cappuccino : tashaneena

2012-01-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

“When Shaytan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.”

"Allah does not judge you on how bad u have been in the past but rather on how good u strive to be now " yaser qadhi

my past wasn't that beautiful.in fact there are many scars, small ones and big ones. but they are all just scars. it isn't bleeding anymore.and the wound is covered.the mark left are meant to remind us to not repeat it, and what is the consequences . and there are things that i am proud of and things that i deeply regret.but don't ever think that your past defines you. because everyone makes mistakes. no exception .

even the days change,date changes, our skin gets old, our sight gets blurry, the leaves change , everything change. some to better and some to the other.

currently i am in struggle with my self. i am thirsty. i am seeking the love of Allah .

but definitely, there is some struggles along the way.

some judge you and criticize you to bring you down.

some push you to keep you chin up

some stands by your side.

some reminds you of Allah :') and remind us to check back our intentions. and these people are the best of companions.

changing for the sake of Allah is not an easy thing, but its the reason you live. till the day we die, we should try to better our imperfections.and follow the ways of Islam. study the basics and fundamentals of our religion, practice and share.

always seek to remind and be at the remembrance of Allah in every heartbeat if its possible. because only 'at the the remembrance of Allah do the heart finds rest.

'even the bird sings his name, so what does that make us?'

make dua for me, so that insyallah allah make this easy for me and grant barakah for my family. insyallah i will pray so that allah will guide us closer to him and insyallah to meet him in jannah.

17 years ago

2012-01-10T00:00:00.004+08:00

and so i was born on the 10th of january . 2.15 pm back 1994

i dont feel like celebrating . im in no place to be celebrated.

listened to this cpl hours ago

try dengar (listen)

mama should be celebrated. not me. :') thank you mama for bringing me every step along the 9 months of torture i had caused you. sorry for every birth pain, birth scar, and sorry for all the times i refuse to listen. i'll try my best to be the best that i could be for you so that insyallah i'll be a better daughter that can always lighten your shoulder.

thankyou for every time you listen to my ridiculous rants that means nothing , sorry for every cry that causes you sleepless nights.

thank you allah for this gift for having the best mother ever. and the best dad ever . :) uhibbuk fillah. insyallah.

cakap taknak celebrate pun tp nnt baba mesti beli cake juga. he is always always always like that. silently caring. haha is there such word? :)

2012-01-09T11:13:00.002+08:00

i hate the idea of the government in malaysia relates race with islam. islam knows no colours, no one is excluded. islam is not only for malays. seriously it itches my forehead when i hear the slogan

melayu itu islam

islam itu melayu =.= pffft.

if only we refer back to the ultimate reference and learn more and act upon what they preach.

2012

2012-01-02T16:09:00.006+08:00

The new chapter

May the new chapter of our lives be filled with roses and butterflies, sunsets and sunrise, warmth and delight, humility and patience and the beauty of Islam. Ameen ya rabbal alamin.-tmblr

Let Allah be the ruler over your hearts, not the dunya (world)

— Amelle Hope

2012-01-02T15:52:00.001+08:00

i wish we could go on a trip together again soon insyallah. i miss spending time with everyone and taking a breather from the hectic life.

twin of faith malaysia

2012-01-01T15:49:00.004+08:00

yeahhaeeeee :) alhamdulillah ya rabb. you gave a chance to me and my family to experience this amazing life changing event. insyallah i'll be going definitely this year too. all races all around the world were there for the same reason. to better ourselves insyallah .

all thanks to allah. and to ahmad luqman for sharing the info about this event. :) jazakallah khair friend !

no words can describe.

so let me show to you one of the amazing talks masyallah from boona mohammed.

one of my favourite verse that struck me is.

"so if you complain that god must be cruel, can you give Allah all that he gives to you?

from the breath that you breathe, to the trees that you feed, from the eyes that you see, till the sea that you eat, if i cut you, you'll bleed, then you will heal magically. "

'even the birds sings his name.' so why dont we?

doesnt that make you think?

one of the sheikhs also shared the fact that the musics that the youths nowadays listen to is actually corroding our iman, destroying it.

we have the words of allah, the most powerful mukjizat sent to us. yet we still find songs to comfort our souls. ?

nay, only at the rememberance of allah that we shall find peace.

insyallah it'll be something that we can change slowly.

this is sheikh alaa alsayed.

one of my favourite.

:')

so ukti! (sisters) let us be one of those women insyallah

asalamualaikum!

sweet reunion

2011-12-28T03:05:00.009+08:00

was held on last 22.12.2011 at garden cafe the curve.it was pleasant. :) to meet almost everyone from my standard 6 class of 2006.everyone is all grown up now.i just cant believe it.last time we met , baru habis with UPSR examination. and now everybody is done with SPM. all the girls got prettier and the boys finally look like grown ups. tho they dont act like one just yet. im glad that this happened :) glad to be apart of it alhamdulillah. i love them <3 enjoy the pictures.

(credits to ahmad luqman )

cant wait to meet you guys again :) insyallah

#favourite quotes

2011-12-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

“Hate no one, no matter how much they’ve wronged you. Live humbly, no matter how wealthy you become. Think positively, no matter how hard life is. Give much, even if you’ve been given little. Keep in touch with the ones who have forgotten you, and forgive who has wronged you, and do not stop praying for the best, for those you love.”

—Ali bin Abi Talib (RA) Ü

2011-12-19T03:13:00.001+08:00

come to think of it again maybe going to the concert is not a good idea to begin with. hmmm. may insyallah allah will guide me. pray so that i'll make the bestest decision.

but when i share about this. i think maybe im not going.

reminderzone #hijab

2011-12-19T02:54:00.006+08:00

Tidak semua wanita berhijab itu solehah tapi wanita yang solehah pasti berhijab. Jaga iman, jaga solat, jaga akhlak dan jaga aurat.

The true beauty, is the beauty of the Imaan, the beauty of Taqwa, the beauty of Akhlaq, for indeed they stay and the apparent beauty fades.

if you have the intention of wearing hijab. do not hesitate. because it is the best choice you ever made. :) who are we to disobey our creator? who are we to say no? or wait? only Allah knows the best.a creator knows best about his own creation. so why be against it?

Hayaa (shame or modesty) is one of the most important factors that keeps a person away from committing a lewd or sinful act. If a person has no feeling of shame or modesty, then there is nothing to prevent him from doing almost anything. He would do almost anything because he has nothing inside him telling him that such is not good behaviour and that he should be ashamed to act in that fashion.

When a person commits sins, his feeling of haya is lessened. As he commits more and more sins his haya is weakened more and more, to the point that it may not exist at all. When he gets to that point, he does not care what people might say or think about him. In fact, he might even start to brag or tell about the sins that he has committed. This type of person will not be forgiven and the road to repentance will be blocked for him.

nauzubillah . so LETS TAKE A STEP CLOSER TOWARDS ETERNAL SUCCESS INSYALLAH :D

i may never be perfect. but this is a reminder for both me and also you :) <3
jazakallahkhair. insyallah who ever reads this will insyallah benefit.

lotsoflove
from sister tasha shaneena

foster the people concert

2011-12-19T01:59:00.007+08:00

on january it is.
my sister begs to go with her.
but im caught in a dilema. between going and not going.
is it a wise choice to go?
yes i love the music. but no im not obsessed with it
she wants the fanatic zone.

which is the first zone thus means nearest to the stage= closer you get to the stage the crazier the crowd gets.

i hate the jumping and moshing pits and all. surrounded by sweaty armpits =.= yerghh. the only sweaty armpits concerts i'd go to is COLDPLAY. only i think.

and girls and boys will be all packed like sardins together.which as a muslim i have to be cautious about. the haram and halals.
and my ustazah said once. what if u were at a concert and then something bad happen. would you want to be in that place if ur time comes?HELL NO. so yes im caught in between. i hope i'll make a wise decision here .
oh crazy sister shila. why MUST you always make me NUTZZOO everyday?????????. :) <3

SO WHAT DO YOU THINK? SHOULD I GO OR SHOULD I NOT? HMMMMMMMM.Tick tock tick tock.
meanwhile enjoy one of my favourites.

acceptance is hard, sometimes harsh.

2011-12-19T00:42:00.008+08:00

its a very dear subject to me. it was something i use to long for from this world.from family, friends, society. all this long i just want to be accepted by everybody. but there isnt such thing as being accepted by EVERYBODY.because no, this world is not perfect.

ada satu memori , hari pertama tadika i think, or maybe it was the first bit of memories that i can still remember. at the age of 5 i was already thinking of the hows of making friends. and the whys of people rejecting us. bila tadika , cara kawan reject bila dia xnak share pencil or gula-gula or lunch box sama-sama. bila tadika , dah mula ada declare 'saya tak nak kawan dengan awak' sambil menangis teresak-esak ,hingus meleleh leleh sebab dia x nak kawan kita.faktor utama : enggan berkongsi makan.

as we grew older. sekolah rendah.
the board and branches of acceptance starts to get even wider. not just amongst friends, but parents, teachers, siblings.
bila saya darjah satu.baru nak masuk sekolah, baba and mama hantar masuk kelas, and i cant wait for them to let me be .and cepat2 suruh mama and baba balik sebab tak sabar nak cuba benda baru. 'benda' yang saya langsung tidak tahu, yang saya tidak kenal. a new world for a small girl like me, i didnt even bother about the books. i was at pause.my focus was on friends. this is when the 'mengumpats' starts, when at this age our minds begin to learn to judge people physically and i dont know. when people doesnt accept you because they think you are a hypocrite,and not normal.
and they call you gedik. as if they even know what it meant at this point of age. on the family side,siblings quarelling everyday over small things. :P and yet to accept the fact that no matter what happen and how much we hate eachother at this point.air yang dicincang x akan putus. but now i know. that i love them soooooooooo much. haha :)

and when teenage life approach, the hormones rage , this is when what we naive teenagers calls 'love' come into our world. eventhough we have no clue of what it is.everybody wants to try it. to be accepted by the girl or boy that you like. to be what the society ask you to be. honestly. i think this is slavery, changing to meet others pleasure and to change to for another person is slavery. because humans will never ever be satisfy. i use to not realize this. i use to not realize that the only reason why we should mend ourselves is to meet the redha in the eyes of ALLAh only.noneother. not you, not me but him the ALMIGHTY.

i use to cry my eyes out when i find out that people make up things about me. when people judge me as if they really know me. when they say things behind my back, and when i am not in the equation. i use to want to be accepted so badly that i would always and always and alwayyyyyyys ask my friends. ' kau rasa apa salah aku? apa lagi yang aku perlu ubah? aku ni teruk sangat ke?kenapa orang tak suka aku?aku gedik sangat ke? aku gemuk? aku pakai lawa x? all of this is useless. Allah tells us to not to talk bad about others even if its true.in surah al-hujurat

and i regret them.

i regret not changing for Allah s.w.t. i regret neglecting my duties,my self. i regret crying for others . but alhamdulillah. i hope insyallah allah will show me the way till the end of my life. and insyallah maybe in this world certain people wouldnt accept me for who i am. but insyallah i pray that the happiest day is insyallah the day i meet my creator in Jannah. amin :') and insyallah in his world. he wil accept me. and that is honestly what matters to us the most.

Allah also reminds us not to be deceive by the pleasures that this world holds.

so yes. acceptance is complicated.
insyallah lets turn new another page.and hope we be wiser this time.

till then,
asalamualaikum and lotsoflove
-tasha shaneena

which i shall remember

2011-12-07T01:03:00.003+08:00

i love them :) exactly as they are. thankyou allah :) thankyou so much.

this was dinner at an arabic restaurant .. everyone was there. complete. insyallah.

this is nothing extra ordinary just my family , having a nice time together talking about stuffs.

yeahh. ehehe. i love them soooooooooo much!

nothingness

2011-12-07T00:58:00.003+08:00

hey there, i got plenty to say, yet its midnight and i just want to say that i miss my blog. :')

graduation day :)

2011-10-15T13:25:00.006+08:00

time flies, had a wonderful blissful day today :) alhamdullillaaah.

hehe, can't believe me and my friends grew up so fast . x rasa mcm org besar lg tapi dah grad high school.anyways, today is something i'll cherish insyallah. something to show to my future generation. mweheheeee. spm is in 29 days tho. i hope insyallah we will score straight A's! pray for me yaaaaaa. so here are the picture of those who colour my world, a present that allah swt gave me.i love each and everyone here . :)

2011-09-23T18:45:00.003+08:00

trial is almost over only physics left. insyallah, i'll bust my a** even more from now on. work hard for it, but i dont think its hard enough. insyallah i'll do good. time flies so fast now, u dont even realise what u are missing.but, yeah.

gaaaaaaaaaaaahhh the numbers makin lama makin kurang , im so so so nervous.

insyallah it'll all be worthwhile. :)

cat eye

2011-09-23T18:41:00.001+08:00

hahaha meet my lovely cats, shila did the funny comic-like editing. yes they look weird, but they are masyallah so lovelyyyyy. and sooo sooo manja. kecik and tamtam

everybody can change,

2011-08-29T06:42:00.005+08:00

firstly! :)

lepas baca post kak maria, rasa nak luahkan apa yang saya rasa.

visit this link (http://peliks.blogspot.com/2011/08/tentang-hijab.html)

its an eye opener, something yang dah lama terbuku tapi x tawu nak luahkan macam mana,

'sapa yang tak pakai tudung kerana cakap, 'aku tamau hipokrit kerana pakai tudung,' itulah orang yang hipokrit dalam beragama' - sham kamikaze.

buanglah budaya barat yang kononnya modern(yang best gileW GilEwW tu!!), kejarlah akhirat. Semakin kau tahu tentang dunia, semakin meningkat 'wahn', penyakit cintakan dunia, dan semakin serabut hidupmu. Semakin kau tahu tentang agama semakin kau takut mati dalam keadaan yang tak 'sempurna', padahal semakin tenang

pakaian kita menzahirkan siapa diri kita, apa isi hati kita yang sebenarnya.

jadi alasan yang kebiasaan kita dengar apabila ada orang menegur seseorang untuk berpakaian lebih sopan. dia akan kata "awak mana tahu hati saya, allah saja yang tahu"

alasan ni sangat tak rasional. minta maaf kalau terguris. dulu, i used that reason too.

okay sebenarnya x tahu macam mana nak mula cerita.

a LOT of things had happened in my life .tahun ni alhamdulilah banyak perubahan

sempena ramadhan and akhirnya .

i think i should share,

tahun lepas , tahun ni, banyak sangat perbezaan. banyak sangat.

alhamdulilah, allah is the best planner, the best for you and me.

atas kejadian yang lalu, saya sangat sedih sebab hilang ramai kawan.mula mula tahun ni, rasa sangat confuse, tak tahu boleh kawan dengan siapa.

but deep inside, i have a gut feeling that insyallah , allah will plan the best for me.

because, if there is the slightest bits of piece inside your heart praying to be someone better, allah will send all these wonderful things for you. so don't hesitate and never ever ever regret

have faith in you , believe that only allah is the best planner and what ever that happens trust Allah s.w.t.

alhamdulillah, waktu mula-mula start skolah, ramaiiiiiii sangat kawan, ada yang allah kurnia dari jauh, ada yang dah laamaaa kenal tapi x rapat,then became very close, ada yang sangat2 humble ada yang sangat2 kelakar, ada yang sentiasa ingatkan kita towards Allah, so Alhamdulillah.

semua orang ada masa yang lampau.semua orang boleh berubah :) , its the matter of either you really really want it or not. everything starts within ourselves.

i am not perfect, but insyallah everyday bertambah-bertambah baik.

this world is a test, filled with many deceiving things that tricks you to think that this is where we belong, and tricks you to think that happiness in this world will last.

a lot of things we can learn, just by observing our surroundings. the people around us.

choose wisely. all the worldly entertainment memang best, tapi perasan tak bila ada apa apa function boleh happy masa tu je. after that habis. its like the happiness in this life have its expiring date. while in akirat is everlasting joy.where insyallah we will meet Our creator. amin :)

this is also a reminder for me.

okay please please please watch this video for muslimah :) a very touching story, also another eye opener for us insyallah, wardina is my idol now :D

insyallah

ramadhan is near towards its end. insyallah panjang umur boleh jumpa ramadhan tahun depan dan seterusnya.

and untuk semua, apa apa yang saya cakap that causes you heart ache , misunderstanding, from the bottom of my heart please forgive me . :)

eid mubarak,

selamat hari raya,

maaf zahir dah batin

x sabar nak makan makanan raya. :)

x sabar nak solat raya kat masjid seksyen 5, filled with happy faces, and semua orang dengan baju raya. ahah :)

sabar x sabar, trial pun dah dekat, jangan lupa bawak buku pegi mana2 untuk siapa yang trial spm .

doakan sayaaaaa :) sedang cuba sedaya upaya untuk cover semua topic and score exam . :)

sekian. always repel bad with good!

asalamualaikum, jazakallah khair !! <3

there is always something missing

2011-08-11T20:11:00.002+08:00

at one time maybe u had given out ur best 100% on something that u did,

but there is always somebody who knows just which buttons to push and make u feel down.

but u can never live to please everybody.

treat everyone like u want to be treated,then insyallah allah will help.

and suubhanallah our prophet PBUH, had taught us to follow his ways.

always repelling bad with something good.

no matter how bad the situation is. insyallah allah will trigger that heart to seek truth.

this is a reminder to my self for i make mistakes.that i wished not to do.

but , there is always someone who dislike what i did, or say or do or act. everything you do, there will be a critic. so i am trying to avoid thinking about them. for what they think does not bring anything good, unless it is an advice fr me to correct my self.

the big H

2011-08-10T19:06:00.005+08:00

this picture was on 23.7.11

i dislike going back and forth to the hospital.

hate feeling weak,

but i am weak, i am only a creation. but i want to be tougher, a lot more stronger inside and out..so that those bad infection wont easily penetrate into my body.i hate seeing my mum restless,worrying about me medication,me more than she thinks about her self.mama's an angel.subhanallah

going through this taught me how to be patient,how to swallow pain, and how every pain that u are going trough is a blessing because in every pain a sin is erased. alhamdulillah,subhnallah.

i miss school.

2011-08-10T18:58:00.002+08:00

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

2011-08-05T17:54:00.000+08:00

I missed tarawee7 on the first day of Ramadan. I was so pissed.

2011-08-05T17:53:00.001+08:00

2011-08-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

i miss you bloggie :)

2011-08-05T17:00:00.003+08:00

im no good writer, but i love writing.does not matter if no one reads it. just a subtle blog would do for me.

i guess this means i'm back.

but not often.

just when there is something major to share.

and when there is time to waste a bit

tehehee.

SO HI!!!! ASALAMUALAIKUM

Jazakallah hu'll khair.

all the time i've been gone i guess was because i was in search of definition

of me

of whats happening to the people around

who am i

why

and so on.

all that jibberish about teenagers trying to find themselves. i guess alhamdulilah i found the essence of it and insyallah i'm gonna hold it tight. till the end of my fight against this worldly challanges .

i guess yes, i am not really the old me.

i am now the more concentrated version i guess :P

there is a lot to share . but first things first! gotta change the header! haha nampak rambuts youu. and now i am fully hijjabed insyallah. i'll avoid those for good. amiin~

owh and salam ramadhan al-mubarak! insyallah dipenuhi dengan bnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak pahala.

salam :)

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/23Q38IAO4D80

2011-05-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/23Q38IAO4D80

insyallah one day it will come true :)

i miss them, i loved going back 'home'

2011-04-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

1.this is my grand mama :) looks exactly like mamaaaa.

2. ifa my cousin :)

my cousins in manado, miss them :/

my love at first sight :) ma.

:) i cant wait to go again. i miss my ma ida and pak tenny, ame tum, ame nina, umi hadiyah,allllllll <3

i think we both have been through this.still am.

2011-04-01T20:30:00.004+08:00

Yasmin Mogahed | March 29, 2011 5:00 am

When I was 17 years old, I had a dream. I dreamt that I was sitting inside a masjid and a little girl walked up to ask me a question. She asked me: “Why do people have to leave each other?” The question was a personal one, but it seemed clear to me why the question was chosen for me.

I was one to get attached.

Ever since I was a child, this temperament was clear. While other children in preschool could easily recover once their parents left, I could not. My tears, once set in motion, did not stop easily. As I grew up, I learned to become attached to everything around me. From the time I was in first grade, I needed a best friend. As I got older, any fall-out with a friend shattered me. I couldn’t let go of anything. People, places, events, photographs, moments—even outcomes became objects of strong attachment. If things didn’t work out the way I wanted or imagined they should, I was devastated. And disappointment for me wasn’t an ordinary emotion. It was catastrophic. Once let down, I never fully recovered. I could never forget, and the break never mended. Like a glass vase that you place on the edge of a table, once broken, the pieces never quite fit again.

But the problem wasn’t with the vase. Or even that the vases kept breaking. The problem was that I kept putting them on the edge of tables. Through my attachments, I was dependent on my relationships to fulfill my needs. I allowed those relationships to define my happiness or my sadness, my fulfillment or my emptiness, my security, and even my self-worth. And so, like the vase placed where it will inevitably fall, through those dependencies I set myself up for disappointment. I set myself up to be broken. And that’s exactly what I found: one disappointment, one break after another.

But the people who broke me were not to blame any more than gravity can be blamed for breaking the vase. We can’t blame the laws of physics when a twig snaps because we leaned on it for support. The twig was never created to carry us.

Our weight was only meant to be carried by God. We are told in the Quran: “…whoever rejects evil and believes in God hath grasped the most trustworthy hand-hold, that never breaks. And God hears and knows all things.” (Qur’an 2: 256)

There is a crucial lesson in this verse: that there is only one handhold that never breaks. There is only one place where we can lay our dependencies. There is only one relationship that should define our self-worth and only one source from which to seek our ultimate happiness, fulfillment, and security. That place is God.

But this world is all about seeking those things everywhere else. Some of us seek it in our careers, some seek it in wealth, some in status. Some, like me, seek it in our relationships. In her book, Eat, Pray, Love, Elizabeth Gilbert describes her own quest for happiness. She describes moving in and out of relationships, and even traveling the globe in search of this fulfillment. She seeks that fulfillment—unsuccessfully—in her relationships, in meditation, even in food.

And that’s exactly where I spent much of my own life: seeking a way to fill my inner void. So it was no wonder that the little girl in my dream asked me this question. It was a question about loss, about disappointment. It was a question about being let down. A question about seeking something and coming back empty handed. It was about what happens when you try to dig in concrete with your bare hands: not only do you come back with nothing—you break your fingers in the process. And I learned this not by reading it, not by hearing it from a wise sage. I learned it by trying it again, and again, and again.

And so, the little girl’s question was essentially my own question…being asked to myself.

Ultimately, the question was about the nature of the dunya as a place of fleeting moments and temporary attachments. As a place where people are with you today, and leave or die tomorrow. But this reality hurts our very being because it goes against our nature. We, as humans, are made to seek, love, and strive for what is perfect and what is permanent. We are made to seek what’s eternal. We seek this because we were not made for this life. Our first and true home was Paradise: a land that is both perfect and eternal. So the yearning for that type of life is a part of our being. The problem is that we try to find that here. And so we create ageless creams and cosmetic surgery in a desperate attempt to hold on—in an attempt to mold this world into what it is not, and will never be.

And that’s why if we live in dunya with our hearts, it breaks us. That’s why this dunya hurts. It is because the definition of dunya, as something temporary and imperfect, goes against everything we are made to yearn for. Allah put a yearning in us that can only be fulfilled by what is eternal and perfect. By trying to find fulfillment in what is fleeting, we are running after a hologram…a mirage. We are digging into concrete with our bare hands. Seeking to turn what is by its very nature temporary into something eternal is like trying to extract from fire, water. You just get burned. Only when we stop putting our hopes in dunya, only when we stop trying to make the dunya into what it is not—and was never meant to be (jannah)—will this life finally stop breaking our hearts.

We must also realize that nothing happens without a purpose. Nothing. Not even broken hearts. Not even pain. That broken heart and that pain are lessons and signs for us. They are warnings that something is wrong. They are warnings that we need to make a change. Just like the pain of being burned is what warns us to remove our hand from the fire, emotional pain warns us that we need to make an internal change. That we need to detach. Pain is a form of forced detachment. Like the loved one who hurts you again and again and again, the more dunya hurts us, the more we inevitably detach from it. The more we inevitably stop loving it.

And pain is a pointer to our attachments. That which makes us cry, that which causes us most pain is where our false attachments lie. And it is those things which we are attached to as we should only be attached to Allah which become barriers on our path to God. But the pain itself is what makes the false attachment evident. The pain creates a condition in our life that we seek to change, and if there is anything about our condition that we don’t like, there is a divine formula to change it. God says: “Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.” (Qur’an, 13:11)

After years of falling into the same pattern of disappointments and heartbreak, I finally began to realize something profound. I had always thought that love of dunya meant being attached to material things. And I was not attached to material things. I was attached to people. I was attached to moments. I was attached to emotions. So I thought that the love ofdunya just did not apply to me. What I didn’t realize was that people, moments, emotions are all a part of dunya. What I didn’t realize is that all the pain I had experienced in life was due to one thing, and one thing only: love of dunya.

As soon as I began to have that realization, a veil was lifted from my eyes. I started to see what my problem was. I was expecting this life to be what it is not, and was never meant to be: perfect. And being the idealist that I am, I was struggling with every cell in my body to make it so. It had to be perfect. And I would not stop until it was. I gave my blood, sweat, and tears to this endeavor: making the dunya into jannah. This meant expecting people around me to be perfect. Expecting my relationships to be perfect. Expecting so much from those around me and from this life. Expectations. Expectations. Expectations. And if there is one recipe for unhappiness it is that: expectations. But herein lay my fatal mistake. My mistake was not in having expectations; as humans, we should never lose hope. The problem was in *where* I was placing those expectation and that hope. At the end of the day, my hope and expectations were not being placed in God. My hope and expectations were in people, relationships, means. Ultimately, my hope was in this dunya rather than Allah.

And so I came to realize a very deep Truth. An ayah began to cross my mind. It was an ayah I had heard before, but for the first time I realized that it was actually describing me: “Those who rest not their hope on their meeting with Us, but are pleased and satisfied with the life of the present, and those who heed not Our Signs.” (Qur’an, 10:7)

By thinking that I can have everything here, my hope was not in my meeting with God. My hope was in dunya. But what does it mean to place your hope in dunya? How can this be avoided? It means when you have friends, don’t expect your friends to fill your emptiness. When you get married, don’t expect your spouse to fulfill your every need. When you’re an activist, don’t put your hope in the results. When you’re in trouble don’t depend on yourself. Don’t depend on people. Depend on God.

Seek the help of people—but realize that it is not the people (or even your own self) that can save you. Only Allah can do these things. The people are only tools, a means used by God. But they are not the source of help, aid, or salvation of any kind. Only God is. The people cannot even create the wing of a fly (22:73). And so, even while you interact with people externally, turn your heart towards God. Face Him alone, as Prophet Ibrahim (as) said so beautifully: “For me, I have set my face, firmly and truly, towards Him Who created the heavens and the earth, and never shall I give partners to Allah.” (Qur’an, 6:79)

But how did Prophet Ibrahim (as) come to that point? He came to it after being let down by other than Allah: the stars, the moon, and the sun. They were not perfect. They set.

They let him down.

So he was thereby led to face Allah alone. Like prophet Ibrahim (as), we need to put our full hope, trust, and dependency on God. And God alone. And if we do that, we will learn what it means to finally find peace and stability of heart. Only then will the roller coaster that once defined our lives finally come to an end. That is because if our inner state is dependent on something that is by definition inconstant, that inner state will also be inconstant. If our inner state is dependent on something changing and temporary, that inner state will be in a constant state of instability, agitation, and unrest. This means that one moment we’re happy, but as soon as that which our happiness depended upon changes, our happiness also changes. And we become sad. We remain always swinging from one extreme to another and not realizing why.

We experience this emotional roller coaster because we can never find stability and lasting peace until our attachment and dependency is on what is stable and lasting. How can we hope to find constancy if what we hold on to is inconstant and perishing? In the statement of Abu Bakr is a deep illustration of this truth. After the Prophet Muhammad ﷺ died, the people went into shock and could not handle the news. But although no one loved the Prophet ﷺ like Abu Bakr, Abu Bakr understood well the only place where one’s dependency should lie. He said: “If you worshipped Muhammad, know that Muhammad is dead. But if you worshipped Allah, know that Allah never dies.”

To attain that state, don’t let your source of fulfillment be anything other than your relationship with God. Don’t let your definition of success, failure, or self-worth be anything other than your position with Him (Qur’an, 49:13). And if you do this, you become unbreakable, because your handhold is unbreakable. You become unconquerable, because your supporter can never be conquered. And you will never become empty, because your source of fulfillment is unending and never diminishes.

Looking back at the dream I had when I was 17, I wonder if that little girl was me. I wonder this because the answer I gave her was a lesson I would need to spend the next painful years of my life learning. My answer to her question of why people have to leave each other was: “because this life isn’t perfect; for if it was, what would the next be called?”

dee dee's suprise suprise!

2011-01-20T15:42:00.004+08:00

it was sweet of them to invite me. i appriciate it :)

and its sweeter to see how they appriciate diyana and

her mum went all teary.

it was funny,fun,momentus day. they even did saang me a song in the end.

cant help to feel happy to see them happy

! :D

ana bahebbak :)

2011-01-20T13:19:00.006+08:00

hahahahaha :D look at mama's face :P she was disgust by abang's medic stuffs. ahha :P

this was last week , it was super fun

but i still ,miss lysha.

just felt like posting em :P

back to school.

2011-01-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

yeap, school dah start since 3rd january!!

first day of school was , different. but a good kind of different, dah turun kelas, so extra hardwork is a must.haha.

since now im officially 17 years old, and this is my senior year(last year of school)

semua benda yang buat macam semangat lebih and put my heart into it..insyallah worthed in the end. amiiiiin!

baru january tapi kalau ada benda sikit je tertangguh dah macam x tentu arah, sebab honestly rasa mcm x cukup masa.

this year , ramai yg berebut fr jawatan and school activities, untuk markah koko for aplication uni nanti.at the same time kena belajar as hard as u can as smart as u can.

jadual dah mula pack, even in the weekends,

weekdays-school in the morning till tgh hari.

and then selasa rabu and khamis, koko activites in the evening

, and certain days nanti ada kelas tambahan sekolah,

and tusyen segala bagai malam,

so time untuk diri sendiri sgt limited edisyen. the list go on and on and on :P hiburan segala macam , terpaksa korban kan ,kot. haha.

ok itu tipu siket,sbb blog ada :P itu pun jarang. tapi kalau tumblr tangan mcm gatal asik nak check.

facebook saya sudah diaktivatekan :( (deactivate) . sebab kalau ada mcm x ingat dunia siket, so better deactivate, takut leka.ececeh.

but so far everything seems alright alhamdulilah, tp tunggu je lah nanti kan? pertengahan tahun maybe dah kelam kabut. bila dengar "SPM" telinga badan semua lah! mcm ada allergic reaction and starts panicking. :P

teringat ex student skolah smk 10 kd yg hebat2 belaka dulu, kak farahana(13A1) kak farahlina(10A) kak intan(10A)and ramai lg.

kak farahana nnt lanjutkan her studies at united states- in something something astronomy.

kak intan is now in cairo, egypt further study in medicine field

kak farahlina also doing medcine i think, im not so sure,

but bila dengar semua ni , jadi inspired and keluarlah semangat aroyo!

dengan harapan insyallah 10A+ .

insyallah ya rabb,istajib dua ana.

till then

urs truly-tashaneena

how time flies, and i realize

2011-01-10T19:07:00.008+08:00

I don’t understand how you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How pictures can never change but the people in them do.
How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back.
How even though you know something is the best for you, it just hurts the same.
How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.
How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.
and ive realize, How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.
but no matter what goes on, no matter how much tears u've shed, life goes on and on and on, and that allah is always on top of any list,
and that happiness is'nt something that last in dunya,
and mistakes is what that teaches u,and challenges is something that makes u stronger, no matter how horrible it taste u must learn to swallow it,
and what a few people think of u, should not let you down,break u into pieces,no because there is always something positive behind it,
and that friends come and goes,except family and allahurabbi .
but no matter what never forget to smile, and never give up, life is an ongoing test and learning process.make sure u understand it :)

dear friends, doesnt matter if we no longer talk like we used to,hangout or what ever, know that i'd always wish the best for all of you, love me or hate me, it doesnt matter, i hope every sin i've ever did towards you,forgive me please, for i am only a girl with flaws,insyallah together we become a better person in life,
i want to thank you for everything that you have done throughout the years we have been friends.
all the best insyallah :) may allah bless and give a us a life filled with bliss.amin,

urs truly,tashaneena

2011-01-08T01:32:00.001+08:00

She’s the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stare hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who rather gets hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who stay loyal to one guy when she learns how to love. She is the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts. She is the type of girl I am.

"penitrating my soul."

2011-01-01T20:21:00.003+08:00

this made me tear, so i wnt to share.

my favourite line is

"its Allah who gives us breath"

"because when its time for solah(solat) its just me, Allah and my mat"
-i want to feel this,everytime.insyallah.

"im so scared because i feel the society creates me,and i would be lying if i said that sometimes i wanna be a fake me,so SHAKE me, oh ya Rabb, DONT LET this dunya shake me,i rememmber the fire ready to take me,save me, hallas!that this world hate me,as long as in judgement day u dont forsake me.so ummi i'm sorry for all the ways that i've hurt you,and maybe i can feel your pain,if i was the one who had birth to you,i really love you, and i believe paradise is at ur feet,so i keep praying so that one day insyallah in jannah we'll meet. :')

masyallah.her words is amazing.it gave me goosebumps and make me understand and realise thing i didnt understand before.

2011-01-01T09:36:00.000+08:00

2010-12-11T20:21:00.001+08:00

COBAAN MEMAKAI kasut tumit tinggi 3-4 inch untuk first timers.
bahahahahaha.

sangat seksaaa okaaaaaaaaaay -.-

taballah (go trough)

2010-12-11T20:11:00.002+08:00

listen to the translations.

A wonderful nasheed that will melt your heart. :')

2010-12-08T14:49:00.001+08:00

“By the sun and its brightness
And [by] the moon when it follows it
And [by] the day when it displays it
And [by] the night when it covers it
And [by] the sky and He who constructed it
And [by] the earth and He who spread it
And [by] the soul and He who proportioned it
And inspired it [with discernment of] its wickedness and its righteousness
He has succeeded who purifies it,
And he has failed who instills it [with corruption].”
(Qur’an, 91:1-10)

"Once Upon a Dream." by Aishah Amin. on LOOKBOOK.nu

2010-12-07T00:27:00.000+08:00

"Once Upon a Dream." by Aishah Amin. on LOOKBOOK.nu: "See looks like this and more from real people around the world on LOOKBOOK.nu."

It means a lot ,it really does

2010-12-06T22:44:00.006+08:00

The meaning of Maal Hijrah in English
is migration.

On this day, Muslim remember Nabi Muhammad S.A.W migrate from Mekkah to Madinah on the year 622 A.D.

Besides, Maal Hijrah also mean changes from bad to good side and can be said as starting point and evaluate inner-self on self achievement.

and now, i've come to point where all i wish for is for things to keep getting better and better in life.this time whatever it is.it just have to get better.no matter what falls into hand.insyallah i'll be strong . i know i am.

my wish is like everybody else's. to be a better servant of allah,to be forgiven,to be loved as i am,to be a better person, a useful daughter,a good sister,a great friend, a brilliant student,a dedicated student, and the list goes on and on and on........ everyday theres always something new to aim for,something to reach out to.. :)

insyallah,

this time i really want this badly.

prinsip mula dari hari ni, nak sangat cuba, walau apa pun , the 5 pillars i'll never let go.

NO MORE OF THE OPPSSS WHOOPSS. x sengaja tertinggal solat lah,

ya allaaaaah, kenapalah malam tadi aku tidur lambat, tengok dah tetinggal subuh!

no more onlining FOR 2 HOURS OR MORE -.-,

no more, weh telupa nk bwak duit, pinjam dulu boleh? grrrr

opsss lupaa lah homework tuu,projek ni,presentation tu.

opsss ,sori ma lupa nak basuh pinggan kemas baju and etc.

oppss , im soo sorry cikgu saya lambat lagi hari ni

astgfrullah, sorryyyy sangaat lupa janji

sorry, i lied, i was stupid and blabalbalala yadayayadidid .JUST NO MORE!

i just gotta get a grip.a bold FIRM tight grip of my self.so i'll never let go.i just can't afford letting my issues bother my responsblities.thats not how life works.thats not how i'm suppose to function.

i hope u pray the best for me too.and forgve what is past.

urs truly,

tashaneena :')

monsieur tashh

2010-12-03T21:54:00.002+08:00

just for fun :D

mis cosas favouritas. (this is not french tho :p)

2010-12-03T03:21:00.003+08:00

laurent :) prbbly the only nicest guy i've chat with. he's charming,clever and cute too :D

ahah. a guy from france. he basiclly made my day by showing how it snows over there in france.by using the webby (webcam!) haha.webcam pun jadi lah eh :P

two of my favourite things ! isnt he sweeet :DD

first the snow.

second is france,basically everyone wishes to go there.(ekhermekherm) even me!the language, the street, the architecture,the guys (kening kening ). ulalaa ~

to bad malaysia doesnt snow . though ey :P sometimes i pray it magically happens someday. hahaha.harapan dongeng saya :') i love when its christmas time.i dont celebrate it tho.just i love the decorations.

one of the favourites.

2010-12-03T03:04:00.002+08:00

It’s okay to say you’ve got a weak spot
You don’t always have to be on top
Better to be hated than love, love, loved for what you’re not

ze event !

2010-12-03T02:12:00.001+08:00

MAYSAA London presents LIVE FASHION / LOVE MUSIC (Teaser) from ikanpaoscollective on Vimeo.

sweeping the dusty old blog :P

2010-12-03T01:58:00.005+08:00

well hello and salam everyone :D

i know i have'nt write for quite sometime, prevented by the lazyness :P sorry. and i didnt have the mood to update.

So here goes.

1st pengumumaaaan!

oh saya turun kelas,i'm not suprised.i've been expecting that to happen.

tengah dok pk macam mana nak bg tawu mama n abah and abang and ..... so on =.= ayoyoyo

im dead. haha.tp dah jadi nak buat macam manaaaaaaa.

kedudukan in my class is 23/30. thats horrible. :/ but i can only blame it on me. so alhmdulilah.

so much for trying my best eyy? haha.

im okay with it tho.changing class i mean.

literally, its time for a change, insyallah its whats best for me. about holiday,which i'm excited about :) im going to the middle-east side. insyallah.

i've been praying for it to happen so does mama. miss it there,the food,the culture,the relatives, and mostly i miss the hot boys there! hahaah ok , i'm joking, i miss ka'bah :') talking about it literally gives me the chills.

despite the horrible final exam result, i've been studying, for spm.cheh, macam poyo kan? nak start awal sangat. tapi seniors,relatives semua dok nasihat suruh jgn start lmbat nnt menyesal. so i think , why not kan.even malas tahap dewa mcmana pun tempuh je la. though its not much.dah mula extra classes.that really really helps. and sudenlly im beggining to like physics. coz i'm getting good at it. heheh. it use to be the subject that i really friggin hate!

about the girls, we've made plans, and are excited for the show :D i hope its gonna be awsome.cant wait to meet those awesome peopleee :D insyallah dpt jumpa hanna tajima,yuna and the other awesome hijabbeds at the event :D gaaaah! can't wait.

urs truly

tashaneena <3

just the three of us

2010-11-23T01:58:00.002+08:00

:') time flies pass us.

things just aren't the way they are anymore.

but its never not ok.insy

minah telekong di mamak stall :)

2010-09-03T11:16:00.004+08:00

baba saya, encik muhd abdul kadar. ye kadar. dalam pasport dah tulis mcm tu. nak buat apa? tapi family panggil uncle kadir. zaman dulu punya imegresen tak canggih mcm skrg.dulu bangla yang tulis. kalau dia pekak, dah memang nasib malang lah kan. seumur hidup orang membahan.redha je lah :)

okay, back to the story.melalot sekejap.

baba went to New Dehli last 2 days. so this is how it goes when baba pegi kerja overseas. mama pun ambik cuti memasak.so alamatnya semalam berbuka instant noodle yee meee. dengan kuih otak-otak. alhamdulilahhhh.
bunyi macam banyak? untuk orang yang macam saya itu x mencukupi porsi perut saya. :P
paham-paham sendirilah kenapa. so, lepas berbuka puasa, siap-siap nak pergi masjid, solat terawih.bila dah habis terawih. rutin masjid tu. ceramah duluuuu baruuu solat witir. macam biasa juga diyana zainuddin ada menemani :P
so, ingat nak dengar ceramah. tapi macam slow je.so jadi lapar balik.di luar masjid ada hidangkan makanan,tadi nampak menu dia macam sedap je ada kuih-ti-yaw. haha :p
bila dah turun nak pegi makan sekejap sementara tgh ceramah, semua makanan dah lesap. perut bekeroncong lagi rancak beb!=.=
so lepas habis witir semua mengadu kat yana lapar. sebabkan mulut saya yang kepoh ini, aunty norisha terdengar, =.=" rasa besalah. so aunty pun ajak lah makan dekat mamak dengan mama sekali. nasib baik pegi makan kat naina mohammad je.
pegi rombongan bertelekung dekat kedai mamak, turuuuun je kereta,memang semua orang pandanglah, mula-mula rasa tebal gila muka. tapi rasa seronok pulak lepas tu. yana pulak tak cukup dengan attention orang sebab kita bertelekung, dia pegi pesan makan ROTI TISU, udah le tinggi mcm KlCC.lagi lah orang duk jeling-jeling.nasib baik makanan sedap :) legaaaaaaaaaa.

pengalaman yang ngeri tapi bahagia.
tak salah kalau buat mcm tu, dapat rasa mcm mana orang judge. dapat baca pemikiran orang sekarang pasal imej agama sendiri and lain lain :)
hee~

welcome lailatul qadr :)

2010-08-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

i dont know why , these couple days make me feel as like im distancing away from allah :(
nauzubillah.

insyallah everything becomes more clear and clearer for me and my loved ones.
ramadhan is leaving us in just 9 more days :'(
the joy.

but aidilfitri is on its way. hope this year is a blast.and filled with joy and thy lord's blessings.
amin.

ni gambar time terawikh with mama and shila, after terawikh i sat with diyana. sempat jadi vain berposing dengan telekung . huhuh.

just want to wish malaysia a happy birthday .

2010-08-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

disaat semuanya indah.
jangan lupa yang payah.

disaat semua berpecah
jangan lupa untuk bersatu.

disaat ukirnya senyuman
jangan lupa allah yang Ar-Rahman

malaysia had been okay.hope everything will become better and better and insyallah allah
always bless this country. love you malaysia

ho yeh :) amin

2010-08-31T02:53:00.000+08:00

okay dah cuba belakon kuat. tapi tahan berapa jam je.
skrg nak nangis sikit boleh?
baru happy2 then benda cenggini jadi

its not what ive wanted to happen.
tp nk buat cmne en.

:'(

those three words are said too much.

2010-08-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

"You are the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep."

forget what were told, before it gets to old

2010-08-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

to see a friend being crushed to bits by forbidden love, being helpless, just being able to sit and stare. is such pain.
to not help ease the pain that u've felt before is suicidal.

im sorry im no help alan.

to tell you the truth, i lied.
i still think of you. i still wonder if you do.
but why should i.im in no right to do so.

My body isn’t perfect. I don’t walk with confidence. I get into fights with my parents and friends. Some nights I’d rather be by myself than out partying. I cry over the smallest things sometimes. There are days that I get through with forced smiles and faked laughs. Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they’re not. I’m not ugly but I’m not beautiful. I don’t look as good in real life as I do in pictures. There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep. I constantly think that I’m not good enough. I’m imperfect, but I’m perfectly me.

2010-08-22T22:25:00.001+08:00

2010-08-22T22:19:00.000+08:00

2010-08-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

i think there's a chance i might like him
he's a good guy
a total idiot :P by that i meant he's able to make me laugh .and senyum sorang sorang mcm orang gila.

just wait and see then :)

viva la espan!

2010-07-08T01:29:00.001+08:00

the woman i call mother

2010-07-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

mama :')

happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *whistle blows*

i cherish every second I'm around you.

for you are the greatest gift i could ever wish for.

trough all the naging, the up and downs of life.

you've done a spectacular job raising me and my siblings up.

being both a mother and father when baba is not around.

staying strong

being you.

i remember waking up in the morning before going to kindergarten,

a hug is a must,

as soon as i woke up , with morning breath, drools, messy hair, everything stinks.

you still came running towards me just to give me a hug.

and that meant everything to me.

that memory. :')

loveeeee youuu ma,

u'r my hero

one could only wish for.

2010-07-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

i want to be rain drops

i dont mind falling

as long as i am not alone

hear the words :')

bahaha. jiwang karat sekejap.

but.. yea.

something about the way you look into my eyes.

2010-07-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

Love and relationships are never like the movies no matter how much we want them to be. But when something beautiful ends, for whatever reason, it's most important not to be disappointed that it's over, but glad that it happened at all.

2010-07-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

tonight! the Argentina against Germany
for sure im puting my bet on Germany!

kalau Argentina menang,

maradona janji nak lari bogel satu kampung dia.
blerghhhhhhhhhhh

kerepot.

who would wanna seeee that freaky show.

so yeah. only for this match.

GO GERMANY.
but im still loyal to Spain.

if both teams *Germany&Spain*
qualifies to the semi final. pergh gempak dua-dua team hebat ni :)

viva la espana!

2010-07-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

" If you spend too long holding on to the one who treats you like an option, you’ll miss finding the one who treats you like a priority "

Listen to your gut. No matter how dumb or silly it seems because 99.9% of the time your gut instinct is right.

list of things i'm excited about :)

2010-07-03T16:02:00.000+08:00

on the list would be

1. my Spinx cat . :)

we're gonna pick him up at the airport tomorrow!!

and then it'll be the first official cat i ever have .

you can call me a pet lover. any kind of animal u just name it, from cuddly ones to ugly weird ones or the so called exotics.but NOT when it comes to small yucky insects that will make me cry so bad.my worst enemy would be lizards and bugs.*especially cockroaches. blergh!

frodo :)

2.the chopin ochestra :)

this is actually my first time going to an orchestra. but i had always wanted to. it would be on next Friday on the 9Th. I'm very very glad ct , amal and qila would be joining me! love you guys. ehehe. so since its a formal event. im beginning to wonder what am i gonna wear?btw,

my piano teacher would be performing too. yey! she's playing the cello. excited to see.i hope it'll be a wonderful experience since i love music.

3. eclipse twilight saga!

like the usual, every year ever since twilight came out the theatre

its like a tradition made by me and my sisters. we'll be watching it together.since me,Nelly and Shila are HUUUUUUUUUUGEE fans. especially those two. we're planing on watching it on Thursday.insyallah on the 8 th.

4. the trip to genting.

its on saturday, the 10th july. hehe. this is part of the school club activity.

which is 'kelab pelancongan'

im pumped, because most of my closest friend will be going with. big hopes its gonna be fun. jadi macam kanak2 ribena balik. nak pegi snow world sanaaa.belum pernah masuk. ohhh lagi satu sebab is because ck, azlan jadi guru pengiring. hhaah

so that would be it for now :)

fyi yesterday was open day. my mum jaw's dropped when she saw my result. :P the bomb like always.

result:

A for english,history,agama islam,english science and tech.

B for bahasa melayu, modern math,and chemistry.

C for biology

D for fizik

and paling hebat

E for addmath.

so,a lecture dengan mama, but dengan both of my elder sister,

my dad, my sis in-l not only kenaw and also my brother.

is'nt it just great?

lol

so, next plan would be a private tutor. =.= i hateeeeeee it. bosan tahap gaban paham tak.

so goodbye kelas admet ,fizik di perfection .

the phase of torture had just began.

but im determined to do better in the upcoming test which is on august.insyallah . dapat score kali ni.

amin ya rabbal alamiiiin

something hidden beneath that smile,

2010-06-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

aku mahu diam, untuk sementara waktu.

ku minta maaf,

seperti kaset yang rosak,

aku mainkan berulang kali apa yang kau kata

aku cuba tafsir ,takrif, mencari makna

di tabir kata-kata mu,

buat masa ini aku hanya perlu

berdiam.

titik noktah.

2010-06-26T13:38:00.000+08:00

To the girl that’s reading this, just thought you should know how gorgeous, intelligent and beautiful you are everyday of your life and don’t ever let one boy change you

beyond beautiful :')

2010-06-26T02:14:00.000+08:00

"
the almighty allah says,
“when a servant thinks of me, i am near.
when he invokes me, i am with him.
if he reflects on me in secret, i reply in secret,
and if he acknowledges me in an assembly,
i acknowledge him in a far superior assembly.”
"

subhanallah

yeah,ranting is therapeutic.

2010-06-26T01:18:00.000+08:00

"Don’t be so quick to judge me, you only see what I choose to show"

“With your beauty, you are better than the sun; with your morals you are more sublime than the musk; with your modesty you are nobler than the full moon; with your compassion you are more beneficial than rain. So, preserve your beauty with faith, your tranquility with contentment, your chastity with modesty(hijab). Remember that your adornment is not gold, silver or diamonds, rather it is two rak’ahs of Fajr, going thirsty when you fast for Allah, concealed charity which no one knows except Him, hot tears that wash away sin, a lengthy prostration born from utter submission to Allah, shyness before Allah when the inclination to do evil overwhelms you. Clothe yourself with garments of taqwa (piety) for you are the most beautiful woman in the world, even if your clothes are shabby. Clothe yourself with the cloak of modesty, for you are the most beautiful woman in the world even if you are barefoot. Beware of the life of bewitching immoral disbelieving women, for they are fuel of the fire of Hell.” (by: Dr. A’id al-Qarani)

“You are the servant, He is the Master. Prayers come from you, answers come from Him. Abstinence comes from you, protection comes from Him. Repentance comes from you, acceptance comes from Him. Go towards him walking, He will come to you running.”*mama always tells this to me

"Kerana perjuangan ini tidak pernah kenal henti."

“The only lasting beauty is the beauty of the heart”

"There is a miracle called friendship

that dwells within the heart
and you dont know how it happens
or when it even starts."

Being strong is important. But knowing who you can count on is equally important.

“The wise woman turns a desert into a beautiful garden”

reunion ahli freaks tercinta

2010-06-25T21:51:00.001+08:00

baba pegi jordan tadi, untill 2,july baru balik.

dah rindu kena marah :p

x dapaaaat nk bising tengok bola ngan baba hrini. grrr

take care bah :) love you lots!

ahad ni ketibaan lyshaaaaa. my eldest sister that looks like a 12 years old girl!

tapi dia yang panggil saye 'kecik'. x seda diri dia pendek, sama perangai dengan amanda ngan nadzmi. :P dah janji nak jalan2 sepuas-puasnya dengan mama and shila bila lysha ada :)

tapi baba pulak pegi jordan. tak cukup ahli.xberapa syok.lama x kumpul ramai-ramai. :'(.tpi takpe lah tunggu lama siket je.

yayyayy! she's finally cming home frm russia

for 3 weeks if im not mistaken.

oh x lupa jugeee ketibaan kucing bululess sayaaaa!

ini gambaaa dia. my sister call him kechik a.k.a frodo bengong :DD

tapi tu lagi seminggu baru boleh bawak balik

dia kena kuarentin kat KLIA.sebab takut bawak kutu or blablabla

.kesian dia.

first timeeee dapaaaat belaaaa kucing betul-betul! excited and takut :p

heheh

sebab takmo bersihkan poopie diaa. takmahu takmahuuuuuuu!!oh lord.kebalkan lah rasa geli kat benda lembek2 ni. haha.YUCK.!

till then,

love tash

2010-06-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

i love them :)

today we celebrated ckgu raja's upcoming birthday.

everything went pretty well :')

jst one thing, hari ni hati rasa kosong

tak ada yang kurang. tapi entah la

haha

sebabkan PMS yang menular, maybee.

fyi,

time physic bole tertido even kepala tegak, asek terlena sampai guna pen jadi tonggak.

bia tak tido.

rasa penaaaaaaat yang tak terhingga.

this song :')

2010-06-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

kau tempat aku meminta

kau beri ku bahagia

ampuni aku ya allah

yang sering melupakan mu.

jadikan aku selamanya

hambamu yang bertaubat,

2010-06-23T22:18:00.001+08:00

watch this!! sumpah sangat comeeeeeeel

nak tengokkkk movie ni :DD

title : Despicable Me

2010-06-23T22:17:00.001+08:00

cerita pasal pervert dekat facebook

2010-06-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

INI CERITA PERVERT

semua orang pun mesti pernah terjumpa speisis manusia macam ni.
akibat terlebih hormon 'gatal', so mereka x dapat lah nak control diri daripada perkara2 yang memalukan diri sendiri. semalam,macam biasa bukak fesbuk, tiba2 dapat mesej dari seorang pervert biasa pervert ni lain jantina tiba2 yang ini perempuan juga. astaghfirullah.

tenganga habis bila baca kata-kata dia dia kata " babe, ur so gorgs, can i have s** with you please??* respon saya hanya , wathefak?? and then terus remove sifulan daripada friends list .

ini baru facebook. dekat formspring, yang sepatutnya jadi tempat pertanyaan soalan tentang diri, jadi tempat orang2 mcm ni express katakata kesat. tak kesah lah , either a pervert or kaki maki orang. contoh lebih lanjut ada dekat chat box blog ni sila sila lah jenguk.

tapi biar lah, mereka yang tempah tket vvip untuk neraka, so, ambil sebagai pengajaran. tak payah nak kutuk2 or whatsoever yang sama waktu denganya, cakap baik2, then kalau dia xde perubahan, tak payah buang masa pegi layan. semua orang pun tahu, kalau layan lagi lah orang2 mcm tu senyum sampai ke telinga.

and jangan lah, jadi macam ni. jaga kata2, even saya pun sama, kadang mencarut tu biasalah, tapi jangan sampai lupa harga diri.

INI CERITA ESOK

esok, mulalah penyiksaan otak.
sekolah dah nak mula
homework and school projek langsung tak ada progres,
macam biasa lah, orang2 yang betul2 kenal saya, dah tahu,
kadang dorang pun lebeh kurang
sukaaaaa buat semua benda last minit
lagi2 bab homework and study, makan tak penah pulak last minit, menghadap internet pun sama, solat , haha.. selalu mama nasihat bab ni.. sebab suka solat last minit.

sekarang patutnya bertungkus lumus pegi buat homework yang agak bergunung tu,
tapi, tengok lah apa buat,

:P

agak serik buat benda last minit ni,
semalam tanya mama, how can i be more disciplined? then dia gelak,
mama kata , kalau kita solat awal2, lepas azan, Allah jaga pengurusan masa kita baik2.

so itu lah punca segala masalah saya. semester sekolah baru ni.
tak nak tangguh2.

dah mula buat semula list of ' things to do tiap2 hari' so that tak lupa apa kena buat. exam result mesti bnyk cikgu bagi esok, lagi lah malapetaka, tapi tak pa, i learned my lesson now, insyallah.
biarlah burukpun result, salah sendiri tak usaha awal.. :)
heheh

besedia lah tengok muka monyok saayaaa esok :D

till then

gudbyeeeee :)
love tash <3>

he's a lot like the rain ,and just like the wind

2010-06-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

Believe in a god. Believe in a song. Believe in a friend. Believe in a warm bed. Believe in tomorrow. Believe in love. Believe in everything. Believe in nothing. Believe in whatever you want. But always believe in yourself.

2010-06-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

I know its hard and I know it hurts, a lot. Its a big cruel world out there and its every man for himself. We all want to chase our dreams and make them come true and in the process we hurt others and get hurt. We fall in and out of love. People are going to tell you that you aren’t good enough, but you are. You are just as good if not better than anybody else. Go out there and do what you want to do and make a mark in this world because you are worth it and you will achieve it.

i cant waaait for my cat to arrive :D

2010-06-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

fyi, its a he
and he's a spynx!
a BULU-LESS cat.
my sister bought me a bulu-less cat because i am elergic to bulu :p

i dont really care tho.
i love em :D

apa itu homework?

2010-06-14T16:53:00.000+08:00

homework itu tak lain
tak bukan
BEBAN!

saiko yang vain

2010-06-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

gamba ni akibat vain,kebosanan yang melampau, and hampa.
takda niat nak promote album paramore.posing guna album tu pun sbb tu benda paling dekat and senang capai. malu nak tanyang muka semata-mata :p cehh

harap maklum.
time ni tengah gila and hampa sebab
mag7 x dapat gather harini :'(
penat call semua orang dari pagi
call,dibba,nanie,shaf tasya nadzmi. tapi amanda je yang respon
yang lain mesti tidur membuta.
:p

rinduuu rinduuuu rinduuuu nak mengomel,membebel,kena marah dengan dorang
:D
tak pa rabu ni nnt farah balik!! hoooyeyy
and boleh membebel lama2 dengan dorang smua. harap2 nadh,fath dgn siti ada and bole join. :D
lagi seronok, the more the marrier.

cerita pasal cuti, tinggal lagi semingguuu. homework yang agak betimbun tak sentuh lagi. study pun tak. kerja selama cuti ni , tengok tv, texting, internet,online movie. annnddd nt forget FIFA WORLD CUP.seronok tengok together ngan baba,shila and mama. haha . MAMA PUN JOIN BISING. weird. but funn :)
besides buat kerja2 tak berfaedah ada jugak tolong mama dengan chores. ngahaha .
untuk maklumat ramai. saya liat & malas buat kerja2 rumah. bukan xnk tolong. tapi, belum rajin .tengah usaha jadi rajin. sembahyang pun skrg last2 minit baru nak terkedek2 amek air smbahyang. mama selalu bebel pasal tu.ngahaha. oh well. :D

apa lagi nk cerita?banyaaak, tp nnt jap.
oh pasal "worst ribut kD" smlm. x sempat nk cerita apa yg jadi. probbly next post baru cerita. now nk kna tolong mama masaaak. kuang kuang kuang. nk buat kuih cara inti ikan. hahahahaha
pelik tak? mama buat inti ikan sbb saya x makan ayam n daging. onlyy seafoood. kira mcm separa vegetarian lah. haha. cerewet. okay lah!. till then .:)

guuudbaaai :)
love tash

2010-06-14T03:40:00.000+08:00

i love his songs :)

including the song i autoplay.

listen to this.

favourite!

the storm

2010-06-13T21:32:00.000+08:00

today was scary for us kota damansara residents. especially around section 5,6,7,8,9,10 though it was short,the effect was impeccable. it made me think, was my life worth living? what we did all our lives. is it worthy?

the day went alright.

it wasnt pretty, it wasnt something i wanted to witness.

even this is not so bad

but it had brought me to a place where i consider. are my doings the right thing to be done?

so, lets be more careful in future ey?

the roads, penuh pokok tumbang, antena, tiang lampu and elektrik.

menakutkan.

under your spell

2010-06-13T01:42:00.000+08:00

in deny.
yet i feel you looking my way,
for a moment, i can tell i got you
and your eyes tell me th truth.

Beauty emanates from every
word that you say ,
And captured the deepest thoughts
in the purest and simplest of ways,
But you see
I'm not that graceful ,
Like you
Nor am i as eloquent ,
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me.

when you love someone, and it goes to waste

2010-06-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

stuck in reverse
when the tears come streaming down ur face,
or when you loose something you cant replace
when you love someone ,and it goes to waste.

and when everything is stuck in reverse.

hi there fellas :)
i havent update.
so exam had ended last three days. which was heaven!
because i failed to not study last minute.

holidays started.its been three days. and these days.
i havent really done much except of trying to act nice .which was a plan of mine to pursuade mama to let me go to the
trip to pangkor with perfection students. i dont even know why i began to think it was possible.
who am i kidding.
but this time, there was no arguements like the usual. yeah u heard me. no FIGHTING over this issue.

plus i dont wanna go there and have fun with my friends, knowing that mama is worrying sick abt me.
so yeah. i can make other plans :)

so beside exam. whats been going on with my life?
well, pretty much all the normal lame stuffs.no such things as lapricons come knocking on the door,,or unicorns and
ext. just me, grounded home,with
mama,baba,shila.

had planned for movie's,brunch,showcase and such.

nothing worth the excitement so far.
but i'm in my comfort zone.

not so bitter, not so sassy, not so happy.
im just me
feeling content.
aiming for better decisions in future.
so yeah :)

this is my brief update.

i'll catchup with you guys later.
loves

2010-05-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

examination goes whoah

2010-05-22T14:35:00.001+08:00

siapaa x nak dapat high score angkat tangannnnnn! memang x de lah kan. siapa x nak.
its just the matter of how bad u want it..

mine?
A. so veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy badly
B. mid-
C. lulus pun takpa
D.Lantak kau la

my answer : B . mid *sederhana but "A-" is gud enough for me , "A+" lagi afdhal

tapi ni harapan semata-mata
buat masa ni lah
hormon malas semakin membiak :p

first day berperang dengan :

bm paper 1 , & bi paper 1 > boleh tahan okay lahh

sejarah > sooon to be jawab :p

subjek digeruni : addmath
physic
biology

insyallahhh dapat jawab okay. :)
lagi 2 minggu exam
then holidays babyyyyyyyyyyyyy. ze moment i cant wait for .

kachinggg

it gives me panic attaacckkk- history paper.

2010-05-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

speaking of history
one of my weird attitude is
im afraid of history paper. -.- yes i know. why right?
i oso donno chaaa.!

definisi

	panic attack::
	A panic attack is basically one of the worst things that anyone could ever experience. If you are having a panic attack you feel nauseas, very hot like you have a fever, feel like you have to go to the bathroom, and feel very scared/worried all at the same time.

story one: exam sejarah
kali ni dah 2-3 kali x dtg sebab takut jawab paper sejarah
tambah2 dah janji dengan cikgu farizal nk score A
-.-

mmg dah ada dalam keturunan demam kalau nk jawab paper sejarah
my brother had it
my sister also had the samething

so i panicked
thats why i skipped school when the day was sppose to be history exam .
story two:baba sakit :'(, stay strong bah.
later around the morning
tekejut gila,
baba was on his way to work,driving mcm biasa
then tiba2 vision dia kabur
so he went straight to hospital
he told us it was the early signs of STROKE :'(
I almost had a heart attack when i heard that

so dari situ timbul penyesalan
:

baba ada temper agak kuat
bukan sebab perangai dia mcmtu
tapi sbb dia sakit

timbul penyesalan sbb im always rough on him
from now on
i'll try my besttttttttttttttttttttttttt yang terbaik to not melawan/menyakitkan/marah/terasaa.
insyallaaaaah baba cpat sembuh
panjang umur :') aminn ya allah.

story three:lift inccident
bila malam ,pegi tusyen, x becakap/beborak mcm biasa,
rasa lebih suka bediam
tiba2 paham ckgu physic ajar. addmaths punya soalan pun jawab hampir semua! :)
x nak membazir duit

time dekat dlm lif
mr.lok* physics teacher kat perfection
dia tanya

mr lok : " girl, why pakai bag besar? *bag pack
me : " saya datang sini nak study sir . im not going shoping, kata nak belajar " *poyo je.
mr.lok : "wahhh, i like that answer,positive attitude "
me ; "thanks sir" *senyummm kambinggggg"

so that boost my rajin scale that night. hehehe
bhahaha.
hope it stays around longer than usual

we are just misguided ghost

2010-05-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

Holding on, like it's all I have.
Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say.
And you, find it hard to care.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Got this way, upfront but never true.
God I'm wrong, it's just the way I am.

i can tell, for better for worse i got you

2010-05-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

a place to crash

2010-05-17T17:16:00.000+08:00

i havent visited this dusty and rusty blog of mine for quite sometime
i aint busy.
just i've become more and more lazier lately
mid term exam is due to this friday people!
and i havent read a thing. :P

last minit all the way ey? lets see how that goes for me

sometimes we tend to forget.

2010-05-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on You feel so lost That your so alone All you is see is night

And darkness all around You feel so helpless You can`t see which way to go

Don`t despair and never loose hope Cause Allah is always by your side

Turn to Allah
He`s never far away

takes a lot to realize,

2010-05-01T03:51:00.002+08:00

“You know, it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments in our lives while they’re happening. That we grow complacent with ideas or things or people, and we take them for granted, and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you, that you realize how wrong you’ve been, that you realize how much you really need it, how much you love it.”

Falling a thousand feet per second

I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence takes a lot to realize
It is worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lye
even if you said i was wrong

When you’re caught in a lie,
And you got nothing to hide
When you’ve got nowhere to run
And got nothing inside

It tears right through me You thought that you knew me

You thought ..
that you knew

I’m not perfect but I keep trying
‘Cause that’s what I said I would do from the start
I am not alive
if I’m lonely
So please don’t leave
Was it something I said
or was it just my personality

I’m not perfect but I keep trying"-hedley,perfect

-tash<3

dreaming wide awake

2010-05-01T03:44:00.000+08:00

how do you feel when you're loved by,?

somebody asked me,
what is your ideal kind of man

i never really talk about it,
since its impossible such angel exist in this world :P

so, here goes nothing

1.someone that shares me about nothing but only truths.willingly shares me his secrets without asking. :')

2. a kind of guy that excepts you just and love exactly the way you are,
and wont mind ze flaws..though maybe bring it up a cpl times

3.understands me and fully.and let me do the same thing. :)

4.that would miss you being around him

5.a guy that like's to be himself, and not be somebody else, or even trying to act as if he's cool
or something

6.that loves you , the guy who take a bullet for me

7.the guy who doesnt only think about sex if we are on the same bed,he would just want to cuddle and sleep trough the night holding me. :')
8.who i could laugh with all day.

9.my favourite feature is always those eyes and hair
haha <3

i think this is what i can emphasize on,

it would be nice isnt it. to have just that one person that'll care for you.
but right now, i dont really mind

i already got 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11, haha i lost my count.
i have my family and closest friends.. and i am thankful :)

killing me softly la macha :'(

2010-05-01T02:40:00.000+08:00

the idea of going to ze concert is killing me -.-
time alan 'auction' ticket i was
DEAD ASLEEP.
you hear me,??????
LAGI KESIAN, TIME ORNG DUK BEREBUT, BOLE PULAK TIDO
mmg dah jangan harap la en :P

woke up last 5 minit, which now is 2.45 am
bangun2 check phone

"im going to the concert,alan has 3 free tickets!!yeaayyyyyy!!"
or something like that-tasya nadzmi

my jaw dropped on the floor. =.=

tekoyak instantly

kepada sesiapa yang pegi,jangan cari pasal and brag at my face kalau pegi.. :p berani cuba lah.nnt ada cap lima jari colour merah panas kat bontot. permanent punya!

takaapaaaaaaa,next time je la nampaknya..
looks like its gonna be just me and my stinkin pillow tmmrw.
mummy i wanna goooooooooooo :'(

booohoooooo

-tash <3

i feel like im becoming a "katak-penyeeeeeek"

2010-04-30T04:42:00.000+08:00

“Another belief of mine; that everyone else my age is an adult, whereas I am merely in disguise.”
-margeret artwood.

i slept at 8 and woke up at 2 am!
now its 4.45 am
my uniform is still in the washing machine.soaking WET!

about homework,
my addmath (half done)
chemistry note (barely done)

i still havent shower. :p

and yet my huge butt
is still bold to sit here and continue wasting my time.

:)

mwahahahhaha
school oh school,today i hate you ,a bit .

and now im walking away..
byeeeeeee,love

moto for today : if life went to bitter on you, sprinkle some sugar baby :)

man i love this :D

2010-04-30T04:05:00.000+08:00

suddnly felt like listening to this after ages.
heheh

by enter shikari

and this i cant wait to watch :)

2010-04-30T03:58:00.002+08:00

I’m at a verge of not caring to consider what are the consequences are.
Loving you is eternity

2010-04-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

im the kind of person who sometimes is too easily distracted.
and sometimes im just lazy to catch up

but i am, always curious on whats going on,
hahahaha. i know what ur thinking.
bear with me.
:p

so, when my close friends are 'gossiping or sharing stories' or whatever they call it
they're talking among themselves.

so im always always and alwaysss
the last one to figure out whats been going on
lame,i know

so,

maybe i should not even bother?

i don't know.
to me this is funny.and stupid to get pissed off about..
don't you?

so , from now on. unless you tell it to my face. i'll just shut my pitchy voice up.

i bet that helps right?

i suck at this things

2010-04-28T21:32:00.000+08:00

i hope our friendship lasts :')
amin

when one chapter ends,another page begin..

2010-04-28T20:54:00.001+08:00

Hope life's been good to you since you've been gone
I'm doin' fine now--
I've finally moved on It's not so bad--
I'm not that sad

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath--to forget .. :')

so snap back to 'reallity'! today...
what happened today was rather creepy, or shall i say ' filled with the question why.'

today was actually cikgu farizal's last day teaching us 'sejarah'
according to them.. which im not so sureeeee about

so, there was like a 'ceramah' sesion today. somthing on religous views and metaphysic crap.
hahaha

tho the word have 'physic' in it, which some how suppose to be logical and based on science.
i just dont get it
not just yet. how the hell that a person could tell informations on a complete stranger just by looking at their name's.

one of the 'pnceramah' predict some not really random stuffs about me,
some are like obvious. mmg semua orang boleh nampak

dia kata

emmm, "awak suka tidor lambat kan"

and i was like duhh
i know my eyebags are clearly visible to everyone

then he goes again,
with some other stuffs.... which are quite private,

but one thing i could share
maybe

that he said, something 'special' will happen in two months,
that made my friends go wooooot wooooot woooot
haha.

so what do you think

can you really believe this metaphysic thing
or are they just telling bunch on supersticious crap..

we'll seeeeeeeee

till then-
love tash :)

haylie

2010-04-27T18:26:00.001+08:00

paraaamoooooooooreeeeeeee

whyyy oh whyyy
your're not comin to malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :'(

because you’re a part time lover and a full time friend

2010-04-27T18:11:00.000+08:00

or are you neither?

hiii hiii hiiiiiiii

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

excited terlebeh
my piano teacher invite me to see her play the chellooo.
first time watching live ochestra :)
hik hok

naive,

2010-04-27T15:35:00.000+08:00

yes,
you were a priority, was i just an option ?
i had those flashbacks i have whenever i go day dreaming
or just gazing at space.
but,thats another story.

today, i was extra energetic at first.
time sukan, then time rehat belilah macam2 benda nak melantak,
tiba2 tersentak, sbb terlupa smthing
IM FRIGGIN FASTING
hahahahhaha
so i pulangkan semua makanan kat acik kantin tu balik

tebal muka! *blush*
:P

then, i was a bit down after recess.
rasa malas nak mampus./blur

macam kuching karpet kat bawah ni. sori lah manda.

tiap2 hari peningkan kepala hotak kau
:P

mocha cappuccino : tashaneena

17 years ago

2012

twin of faith malaysia

sweet reunion

#favourite quotes

reminderzone #hijab

foster the people concert

acceptance is hard, sometimes harsh.

which i shall remember

nothingness

graduation day :)

cat eye

everybody can change,

there is always something missing

the big H

I missed tarawee7 on the first day of Ramadan. I was so pissed.

i miss you bloggie :)

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/23Q38IAO4D80

i miss them, i loved going back 'home'

i think we both have been through this.still am.

dee dee's suprise suprise!

ana bahebbak :)

back to school.

how time flies, and i realize

"penitrating my soul."

taballah (go trough)

"Once Upon a Dream." by Aishah Amin. on LOOKBOOK.nu

It means a lot ,it really does

monsieur tashh

mis cosas favouritas. (this is not french tho :p)

one of the favourites.

ze event !

sweeping the dusty old blog :P

just the three of us

minah telekong di mamak stall :)

welcome lailatul qadr :)

just want to wish malaysia a happy birthday .

those three words are said too much.

"You are the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep."

forget what were told, before it gets to old

viva la espan!

the woman i call mother

one could only wish for.

something about the way you look into my eyes.

list of things i'm excited about :)

something hidden beneath that smile,

beyond beautiful :')

"the almighty allah says,“when a servant thinks of me, i am near.when he invokes me, i am with him.if he reflects on me in secret, i reply in secret,and if he acknowledges me in an assembly,i acknowledge him in a far superior assembly.”"

yeah,ranting is therapeutic.

"Don’t be so quick to judge me, you only see what I choose to show"

reunion ahli freaks tercinta

this song :')

cerita pasal pervert dekat facebook

he's a lot like the rain ,and just like the wind

i cant waaait for my cat to arrive :D

apa itu homework?

saiko yang vain

the storm

under your spell

when you love someone, and it goes to waste

examination goes whoah

it gives me panic attaacckkk- history paper.

we are just misguided ghost

i can tell, for better for worse i got you

a place to crash

sometimes we tend to forget.

takes a lot to realize,

dreaming wide awake

killing me softly la macha :'(

i feel like im becoming a "katak-penyeeeeeek"

man i love this :D

when one chapter ends,another page begin..

haylie

because you’re a part time lover and a full time friend

naive,

"
the almighty allah says,
“when a servant thinks of me, i am near.
when he invokes me, i am with him.
if he reflects on me in secret, i reply in secret,
and if he acknowledges me in an assembly,
i acknowledge him in a far superior assembly.”
"